Happy Saturday everyone!
It's about time us East Coasters got some sun! I'm pretty tired of keeping my hair wrapped for fear that it'll go POOF. Well actually it already did go every which a way, so I'm waiting for some good weather before I whip out my wallet again to recover the 'do.
Brethen, it has been a good gosh darn week. Mostly because I am inching out of my own way. And I don't mean just saying "it is what it is" and 86'ing a situation, but really clearing my thoughts and allowing breathing room for whatever emotions may surface. Some of you may know I had this "kinda sorta" relationship going...hmm, you know what that means - not a commitment in Eastern Standard Time but a commitment nonetheless in Kristen's world. And of course, Kristen's world reigns supreme so it was indeed a special friendship.
Don't you hate those? Those "I thought this was...but it ain't...awww geez, what was I thinking" or even those "if this person would just act right" situations?! Maybe some of you are through with that stage but it took me a minute to seriously snap out of it. I thought that maybe I was asking too much of the person/situation or I was prematurely confessing - no whispering - strong feelings to myself but NO, I am not and was not crazy!
I did all this soul searching just for me to hit MYSELF in the face and say, 'Kris, there's nothing wrong with you. There's nothing wrong with wanting to explore love BUT if that person is not there with you, he just isn't.' Regardless of what I may feel or see, there's nothing I can do because two people see through different sets of lenses. And I can jump, wave, kick, scream, and even cheer someone on but if they don't see it or if they aren't willing to step over personal hurdles, than it's time to go back to focusing on my own course. That doesn't mean that progression will never happen, but just not when I was trying to make it happen and certainly not before worrying about self! I've learned so much, mainly that (my) love is honest and pure, and it isn't here to be timid and meek. Love and greatness are bold and even when you try to dim that light or pull it back, you can't. Cause love is the most powerful energy ever.
So cycling through my emotions has been a really fulfilling process. Meanwhile, I've been feeling through various career opportunities. One thing I've continually expressed is our need to be SPECIFIC in our prayers cause the things we ask for do come...trust! But if you say "I want a burger" and you get cheeseburger with onions and mustard, you can't really be mad cause you didn't specifically ask for a Bacon Cheeseburger with ketchup, lettuce and tomato. So yes, oppportunities have been coming but then I have to step back and redefine (over and over) what it is I truly want. I really want some paid speaking engagements on career development so if you know of any resources I need to tap into, please give me a ring!
I could seriously go on forever cause I'm still typing away in my bed but I'm gonna get on up and out into the world. We make this whole life thing harder than it needs to be, but self discovery and remembering the greatness we came here with is always tricky. And all of us have a different mountain to climb but hopefully we'll all reach the top and hold hands in harmony. LOL
It's been real good people!
News Briefs:
1) I am slowly developing a love/hate relationship for Beyonce because she's not giving us room to keep up! I'm teeter-tottering about purchasing "I Am...Sasha Fierce" tickets because quite frankly, I'm not really THAT thrilled about seeing her on the stage. I wanna see myself on the stage shaking my bum and making millions on end. But, I have another road to travel... :)
I am THIS CLOSE to writing a Chronicles entry about Ms Beyonce Giselle Knowles-Carter...and it's just sad how much of a STAN I am...hmph! Until next time...
Creative Mega Bubbles & Sunny Days,
Kristen Victoria
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