Hi Everyone,
How are you? I know it's been more than a hot minute since I've reached out, and my only excuse is "taking a summer break." However, we all know that I bask in the opportunity to run my mouth and type feverishly so I really don't know what happened. A week turned into two weeks, and then I just took an unforeseen hiatus for every reason and no reason at all. But I'm back, kicking and screaming, and that's all that matters.
It's not even Fall and I'm already starting the countdown to my 25th birthday, which is on November 25th if you'd like to count down with me. Besides the fact that I am trying to decide between a New Jack Swing or MJ themed party, I feel like some things might actually start clicking by then. This year has been, well, interesting. Slow to say the least. Transformative to say the most. Going at its own pace but it is indeed going with intention. It's one of those caterpillar seasons, but alas we know those pretty wings are coming soon!
I am intrigued, bored, excited, nervous, pensive, motivated, lazy, and jazzidreaming all at the same time. I'm not one for a pot luck of emotions because all that mixed up together can sometimes equal stagnation. So I try to block out my thoughts of the unknown and keep on stepping. That's turned out to be effective as I am always plotting and planning my world takeover. But one thing is true - I am in limbo. An "I really can't tell ya what's going on" kind of limbo. An "I'm gonna ride the wave and see what shore I end up on" kind of limbo. I'm almost to the point of the "Stop asking me what I'm up to because I'm trying to figure it out myself" kind of limbo. This is the kind of feeling friends come to me with, so it's oddly uncomfortable when I am forced to take a look in the mirror. I do use my own advice but it's time to take down more notes from another, not so well known book. I suppose this is what occurs when we are forced to try new things that make us squrim but will ultimately make us better. Simply - Out with the old, in with the new. How can we move on if we don't want to let go?
The new feels so much better any ol way but yet somehow we wanna look back and try to make our former comfortable ways, people, experiences, modes of operation work. AND. THEY. JUST. CAN'T. I know I'm not speaking in specifics because I really don't have any one specific story in mind. All I know is that this has been one heck of a year with Obama as president, swine flu running rampid, the weather going mad, Michael Jackson flying back to the galaxy, several births and deaths, and Twitter shutting down for an entire day - I know, the world's truly coming to the end with that one. LOL
Sometimes I feel like nothing is going on in my life because the job market is super slow but then I stop and think about all the life changes I've experienced in the last 8 months. A number of people (new and old) have walked in and out of my life to illuminate some part of me. I have made significant strides with my "passion projects" which will no doubt be "put on" before the year's end. Lance Drummonds, me artist, me pal, has made a tremendous climb - almost 300,000 hits on his www.lancedrummondsmusic.wordpress.com blog. It is a wonderful feeling to believe in someone and watch their dream and the collective team mature steadily. And loved ones have all made courageous leaps within this same time frame. So you know what, I guess this is the year that's molding me into a true adult - and damn it, IT. IS. WEIRD... Aaah well, such is life.
I suppose this is also the formula for champions. An old chapter closing, a new chapter beginning... I just wish it would begin already!!!
You know what loves, it's passed my bedtime. It's about that time to take some Claritin and hit the hay. My allergies/cold symptoms are acting up!
Cinnamon Toast Crunch & Jello Pudd'n Pops,
Kristen Victoria
P.S. The Not So Randomness:
1) Act like you know and watch True Blood. I'm absolutely hooked! HBO, 9pm!
2) Start saving your energy for the weekend of 08/29/09 - MJ's birthday!!! (Goodness, I hope I don't break another shoe on the dance floor.)
3) I have broken the bank with my 2009 traveling so if you are an out of towner and you already know I love you, stop by mi casa!
4) I read "Act Like a Lady, Think Like A Man" finally...of course when I needed it and should have been applying some of the things we all instinctively know and don't act upon, I didn't want to touch the book. There's nothing new in there except common sense. It's a cry out for less dreamy thoughts and more real life analysis. Quick read. I recommend.
5) Big Hugs and Well Wishes All Around! :)
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