Hey Family,
I'm back. It's been too long. I've missed you. Within the last month, enough people have inspired me to get off my duff & back to the Chronicles. Thank you for allowing me to have your eyes. Thank you for your words of encouragement, as I, too, continue to journey through this thing called life. Because of this cycle of transition and transformation, I found myself wondering if I was doing the 'whoa is me' dance - taking you through too many dips and turns without any Cha Cha slides. I, secretly or not so secretly, love to make people laugh and I was upset I wasn't chuckling. I was really mad I didn't find my growing and changing funny; that I no longer wanted to wrap my experiences up by 'finding the lesson.' So I shut up for a minute and did my 'where's my life going' quandery silently.
Of course, that question plagues each and every one of us daily. I, however, literally cannot escape what seems to be my path. I had pretty much stopped writing altogether for these past two months and in November, I was hit with multiple dreams, meetings, and once in a lifetime debacles. I am being shaken around to the point where I have to fight for my voice. I have no choice but to continue shouting from the rooftops - I HAVE SOMETHNG TO SAY. And it's also been made very clear, that I can either sit around and think about what I wanna do and where I wanna go...or I can just, DUH, do it!!!
Before every road trip, my mother and I bow our heads and say, 'Lord, you are the pilot. I am merely the co-pilot. Please get us to and from safely & soundly. Amen.' We expect to reach our destination unharmed, knowing that God has wrapped His wings around our car. When I travel in planes, I think of Him holding our aircraft, the way that kids direct their toys through the air. It helps unnerve me because I have a fear of flying.
Well...I am currently staring my goals and fear of the unknown in the face so...ahem, here goes -
'Lord, you are the writer, the producer, the director. I am merely the co-writer, co-producer, co-director. Please work through me each and every day as I finish the final draft of this screenplay, begin casting, and seeing these projects through. Please allow me to think, speak, walk with confidence, and share my message and creativity. Amen.'
I love the last month of the year because it's two-fold: the last lap (although this is a cyclical thing, we really don't start a new but it's nice to think along these lines) and the pre-start to the start. It's like brushing your teeth and tying up your shoes before a good morning run. 2010 - here we come! So I'm dedicated to finishing this year with zest, allowing the unknown to encourage me as opposed to plague me. I'm starting the new year with a sense of determination, focus, willingness, openness, and hunger because the only thing that remains the same is change. Constant growth, forward movement, and uphill climbing! My legs may get sore but I can always take a deep breath, regroup, and keep climbing. No looking back!
So 2009, you have blessed me with lots of lessons, mileage, new friends, and more stories to share. And I'm thankful to continue learning and LAUGHING and finding more about the stuff I'm made of.
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Love & Hugs for Days,
Kris
P.S. Dang, I just realized the 'Chronicles' turns 2 tomorrow. :)
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