The "Mixed Messages" Chronicles of Kris - 02/16/09

Good Morning Ya'll,
Last night I had a conversation with yet another 30-something year old man who has taken a step back from dating. I am meeting alot of "exhausted" good men who are tired of dealing with women. They love 'em but for now, they're leaving 'em alone! Now, there's always been a misunderstanding between the male/female minds, but I think it's safe to say that with the "I'm an independent woman, hear me roar" and the "Man, I'm just gonna do me" attitudes running rampant, no one is trying to deal with the BS anymore. Why is there such a break down between the sexes? And the unsolved mystery - what can we do to get it together?

So let's take a step back. One of my ultimate pet peeves is an adult asking a young person (ages 11-16), "So...do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?" I HATE THAT! It's not cute. From my eyes, inquiries like this indirectly pressure kids to start thinking about the opposite sex. And I truly don't understand what for! Maybe I'm rigid in my thinking but no young person under the age of 19 (and that's still low) needs to even be considering dealing with anyone on a serious level. How are we gonna effectively communicate with someone when we haven't even figured ourselves out?!?

We women are taught very early on to think of marriage and babies. From the moment we come into this world, we receive doll babies, little doll houses, we're holding bottles for our Baby Alive, etc. I was always a Cabbage Patch and Muppets-type kid but for the most part, women receive these kinds of messages throughout our entire lives. I'm not sure what men are thinking about - maybe rough housing, school, sports - but I'm starting to hear that through the messages women get, we're putting undue pressure on our male counterparts before it's time. That kind of pressure can be anything from "gimme a kiss" to "be my prom date" to "I wanna have your baby" to "why won't you marry me." I've seen both men and women lose focus before they even knew what goals and dreams to focus on because they got caught up in relating. Now of course, every situation is different. Again, this is from my perspective.

Fast-forward to now. I am 2? years old. I have liked several people in my day, but haven't dated seriously. I used to think there was something wrong with that but now I see the distinct advantages of that. I know alot of "caught up" folks, and I know a lot of people who feel they wasted their youth trying to "play house" and have an adult relationship. You know that whole "wifey" thing – and by the way, what is "wifey"?!? I'm not knocking love in any way (I love to love!) BUT I am seriously alarmed by the number of people who feel trapped, hopeless in life and the pursuit of their goals cause they're under some man or woman.

So, this is what I'm seeing. Young men and women looking for love in all the wrong places and the wrong ways. Young women want to be "committed" (whatever that word means at 18 – hmph!) while young men are just putting up with it so they can have someone to poke. Either the guys got weasled into a relationship or they are just going with the flow and wind up shrugging their shoulders about it. Of course there are always the folks just looking to poke and move, and even the ones who do establish some kind of friendship but they end up confused and heartbroken.

Then, the gentlemen have already been hurt, so now they really don't give an f and have turned into men just looking to poke. And now, there's this phenomenon of the liberated woman also looking to poke cause they can't be bothered. This leaves us with a whole lot of poking and not a lot of emotional attachment. A lot of whining and complaining to our friends, but no "stick and stay" kind of bonds.

Everyone is exhausted! And it doesn't stop there; it just gets progressively worse! The 30-something single women don't wanna be single. The 30-something single man has taken themselves off the playing field (until they start dating younger). The 20-something year old woman writes off 20-something year old men because those men haven't dealt with their feelings enough to know what they are actually feeling. The 20-something year old man plays the field because there's a 20:1 ratio out here, until he eventually gets tired of that and he wants to actually settle down a bit. But then realizes all the late 20, 30-something single women are itching for marriage and babies and that's too much. And then everyone's giving ultimatums and ending up broken up anyway.

Gosh, doesn't that cycle just suck! Do I even wanna get in that? Where do I fall in the mess? Or will I find myself in a different playing field because I'm observing this before jumping in with my eyes closed? This is a never-ending topic…because we are directly and indirectly affected by societal images. We're internalizing what our family and friends think, we're constantly replaying our own life experiences, and then finally, we may or may not get to the point where we can point out what we may hope or desire…and how we get there.

Dog on it, learning new people is supposed to be fun! I thought loving and learning is/was natural! When did expectations – we're gonna jump from point A to X – become the ultimate kill joy?

So here's what I'm doing cause I'm trying to avoid that ugly rat race. I don't claim that whole "independent woman" nonsense because I think that's a total cop out – if you're about your business, you don't need to scream it, just do it! I'm learning to listen to men. Ladies, do not go to your female friends to get advice on guys. What the hell kinda sense does that make? Go to the source! And lastly, I try to avoid doing things that would cause me to wanna put pressure on myself or the guy. And that's it, I'm done. And even in all this, of course I wanna try new things and be on someone's arm, blah blah, but not with all that other stuff. Jim-mo-ne Pete, who needs that!? Not I!

Love and Hugs,
Kris