Hey Family,
Shout out to the newbies - we have a lot of new Chroniclers so welcome! :)
I've given your replies to last week's Chronicles a lot of thought, especially this message -
'By the time you've gotten up the nerve to express your interest in a person, it is simply TOO late.' That statement rings true in my 'liking' history, as I reflected on all the guys I've had crushes on in my life and the ones I've actually said something to. Until pretty recently, by the time I blurted (yes, blurted) something out, it was either years later or I gave up on the person getting the hint or I just felt like telling a funny and didn't let them know seriously, which gives them the opinion to either have me repeat it again at another time or simply ignore
it. I know - BAD MOVE! But I wasn't always kick ass Kris. I had my days of serious insecurity, where I felt too tall, too brown, too outspoken...what can I say it's part of the growing pains of life and it happens to the best of us.
Sidenote: And don't assume that because a woman is focused and independent, she doesn't welcome a strong partner. I am willing to share the shine! Ok, back to the regularly scheduled program...)
But of course as you get older and grow into yourself (and realize the ones who were 'so fine' in high school have maxed out by the time college is over), you start to pop your collar and go, 'Hey, I am serious prime real estate!' And although the fear of rejection rings true from time to time for all of us, at least it isn't completely paralyzing and overwhelming like it used to be.
One thing I've realized in life is that in every area, 'what's for you is for you' and all you can do is walk in it. Last week felt like a whirlwind to me because so many things were moving at once, and a lot of times I try to push myself harder because I'm trying to keep up with what seems like God's plan. Like if I have a slow week, I'm thinking, 'Oh no, this doesn't mean slow down
the pace. I have to pick up my focus cause you're about to bless me real good.'
In this industry, I'm finding that the good ones stick together and that's been evident in my connections thus far. I've been in communication with a great lady, Essie Chambers, who is the VP of Development at Nickelodeon's The N channel. It all started from me sending a 'random' email to her just introducing myself and letting her know I'm a follower of her work and would love to chat. Long story short, she hit me back and was very excited about 'helping me become
the best showrunner I can be' although I hadn't even expressed my interest in executive producing.
Well a few weeks ago, Essie told me I need to get in touch with Tracey Moore, a wonderful acting coach/casting agent. She told me she'd get her information to me and before she could do that, a family friend (shout out to Billy) took me to an acting class...taught by her. We connected and all I can think is wow, God is good. It's now not just one avenue; I'm getting to the people I need to get to just because...and it's not me getting me there. I'm just walking in it.
Everything we want and need is already within us, and it's our jobs to allow that greatness to shine and CREATE our happiness, or at least try our hardest to minimalize the dumbness. I believe in good energy at all times, and don't compromise your happiness and growth for ANYONE!
Case and point, House Party! I'm sure you remember when Play tells Dragon Breath
Bilal to 'STEP...just STEP' when he scratched up his speakers. LOL Whenever people start rubbing me the wrong way, I see Play in my mind. Seriously... 'STEP!' I don't wanna hear it! Yo, sometimes it be's like that! Don't feel obligated to listen to someone who's bringing you down and distracting you from your victory.
Sometimes I see life like a long road, where I need to stop at various houses along the way. One for food, another for shelter, another for words of wisdom, another for friendship. I know my destination down that path, but I have no clue who or what obstacles/miracles will come my way along the journey. I just know by the time I reach my destination, I will have been tested, touched, strengthened, and renewed to become a better me. And this, my friends, is a part of the journey and it is made sweeter because of all of you.
One of my all time favorite movies is The Wiz. I can't stand The Wizard of Oz because when the Tin Man, Cowardly Lion, the Scarecrow, and Dorothy reach their goals, the Oz people (I forgot what they are called) give them some stupid medallions. What is that? Forget that fake stuff. By the end of The Wiz, they all realize the qualities they've been looking for, they already had all along. And they had the most heart, the most intelligence, and the most courage! YOU
have those same qualities and more...
I love you all so much!
Jabbawockee Masks, T-Shirts, Flashing Lights, and Kangol Hats,
Kristen Victoria
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